Thursday, June 29, 2006

Blur



I'LL NEVER BREAK YOU HEART-BACKSTREET BOYS

Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

Chorus:
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
(2x)

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked)
You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

Chorus (2x)

Bridge:
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

Ntah aaa. Aku hepi sbb dpt men2 ngan Cik Ayen...yeayy...lame tak mendengar cite kawan baik aku nieh. Windu sangat kat die. Skali tetibe anta aku sms bodoh. Ayen...dikale2 world cup nieh ko la segalenye utk aku. Bile ko takde, sunyi rase idup aku tgk game bola sowang2. Rase nak meleleh jek..sedih betul! Tp dpt la kitowang bercerite pasal Argentina td...heheh..syioookkk...Ayen mmg gempaq!

"Die" tunggu aku. Yelah...aku kate nak dtg opis awal arinieh sbb aku makan ngan Su kat Putrajaya. Tgk2...kitowang smpai lambat. So, die kena balik pulak. Tak dpt la jupe aku. Majuk ke? Ntahlahh...

Pastuh...pagi2 buta dh sms aku. Kdg aku pelik jugak, bangun Subuh ke. Hahaha. Boleh tak aku ade suspicion macam nieh kat die. Probably dis is the reason I'm being cautiois...papepon...it's gud to have sumone yg really understand about my job! Slame nieh org ingat aku tah keje ape...pakai wangi2...calit sane sini, lepas maghrib dah jalan gi keje. Nak2 plak van aku tuh apek yg bawak, org ingat gua GRO bertudung gitu...haha...Tak nampak gaknye tag aku yg besar nieh dr mane..

So, basically...as a companion yg memahami keje aku, he is. Sbb die pon keje macam aku. Been in my team...so samelah waktu kejenye. N dgn baiknyelaaaaaa call aku nak tanye development aku arinieh. Dgn jujurnye aku ckp....gua stressed up! N tau ape die cakap? Takde sape yg keje macam kitowang yg tak stress n tak penat! Guuuuudddd...!!! Dr org yg kate, "Alah keje ko senang je!"

Aku pernah cakap kan rasenye, aku takleh tolerate kindness...cuz i'm gonna be sad. Aku rase cam sedih plak tetibe bile org care nieh. Not dat aku kate aku tak appreciate...but macam mane ek? I mean...the last time one person really cares about me cost me my heart kan...n tibe2 ade org yg buat macam nieh everyday ngan ko...macam tak biase n menakutkan. U're wondering whether he knows the phrase of giving up n how long is he going to hold on...

Frankly dear, i miss u. Yup, he's a very frank person. Tak pernah nye nak hide! But... aku? Bisu when he said dat. His reaction? Bengang kot...

Gua takut beb! Itu jek. Skang gua dah admit. I'm taking it as missing me as a fren...tp nak reply balik miss u 2...ntah aaa...apasal ta kuar ek!

Okeh aaa...blur again...back to work Sha oiii!!!
p/s: me in purple to work 2day...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Blur!



BURN-TINA ARENA

Do you wanna be a poet and write
Do you wanna be an actor up in lights
Do you wanna be a soldier and fight for love
Do you wanna travel the world
Do you wanna be a diver for pearls
Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above
Be anyone you want to be
Bring to life your fantasies
But I want something in return
I want you to burn, burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn
Burn for me
Burn for me
Are you gonna be a gambler and deal
Are you gonna be a doctor and heal
Or go to heaven and touch God's face
Are you gonna be a dreamer who sleeps
Are you gonna be a sinner who weeps
Or an angel
Under grace
Ill lay down on your bed of coals
Offer up my heart and soul
But in return
I want you to burn
Burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn burn for me burn for me
Yeah
Ooh
I want you to burn baby ooh
Laugh for me
Cry for me
Pray for me
Lie for me
Live for me
Die for me
I want you to burn
Burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn burn for me burn for me
Yeah
Ah yeah
I want you to burn
I want you to burn for me baby
Ohh yeah

Aku tak sure aaa aku dh pernah ke belum letak lagu nieh dlm blog..tp aku sangat la suke lagu nieh. Aku rase kan, bile aku nyanyi lagu nieh...dgr lagu nieh...aku berade diawang-awangan & jadi sangat mengade2!!!! Hahahaha...

Okeh...start with d morning. Morning means=balik keje. Balik keje means, siap2 nak tido. So, lepas Subuh..weeennggg...lelap sket..mamai. Tibe2 8.00 p.m..phone rang.
"Assalamualaikum...haiii...dah balik?"

IT'S HIM. Aku pon menjawab. Tah camne sore aku, but basically aku okay la...cume sangat2 mengantuk n penat!!! N aku teringat soklan last die tanye aku. "U pilih shift nieh ke diorg bagi?" Aku jawab aku pilih. Then he asked, why. Aku jawab, "Relax aaa...bujang. Dah kawen len la boleh i tukar shift...". He laughed. Kelakar ke? Hahaha..ntah aa...yg aku nieh pon satu, menjawab dgn penuh jujur. Ngantukla katekan...hehe...

Kul 12.00. Breeeppp...sms. Tanye dh bangun tido belum. 6.30- again. Ask me pasal nak gi keje. I dunno...it's getting weird..his sentences. Now, from u, it turns to dear...N suddenly kate nak stay back smpai aku dtg keje...Well...tp exhausted. Yelaaa....aku sniri exhausted, inikan pulak die! Pangkat die ngan aku, die lagik tinggi..aku lagik kuli. Basically...otak die lagik penat dr aku...So? Aku ckp la..tak payah menyusahkan diri cuz aku rase tak perlu pon stay back jupe aku. Kalo dh abes keje kul 6...jgn la tunggu lagik sbb aku start keje kul 8 abeh kul 5 pagi!!!

Then die jawab: Taklah..sbb nieh pasal u. Aku cam speachless...last2 aku insist jugak die balik umah n tido. Then, aku gi send msg kat bos die kate die nak cuti... itu jek. Basically...aku sniri tak tau camne nak smpaikan. Tak ke pelik byk2 org yg nak smpaikan msg, aku yg die suruh? Aku tak satu team agik ngan die, pastu die de bos baru...n basically org ingat kitowang tak kenal each other (maklumla...org ingat aku pendiam kan! hahah. Smpai Shivani tuh pergi tanye aku, "Eh, how come u know he wants to take leave?" Aku punye blank la nak jwb!!!!

Ntah aaa!!! Blur. Now I'm trying to treat him like Ayen...tp orgnye tak treat aku macam Ayen treat aku. Too much sweet is not gud for ur health kan...so, aku pon cam blur...last2? GO WITH THE FLOW!

It's still new...tgklah macam mane nanti. Basically kalo tanye aku, aku langsung tak reti nak buat ape..just tgk jekkk...

N...FRANCE WONN!!!
Yeayyy...hepi! Aku kaco mentor aku si Satria nieh sbb die sokong Spain. Bestnye! Aku mmg tak suke Spain...ape lagik, menjerit2 rasenye dlm ati. Tak cover aku melompat tgk game smalam...sbbaik time tuh takde customer...hahaha..

Okeh...blur..back to work...

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Yang Memahami



GOODBYE ME LOVER-JAMES BLUNT

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Kowang kalo nak tau nieh la lagu yg paling menyayat ati liriknye utk aku...adoddoooiiiii...gua dgr lagu nieh gua tak sedih2...tak jiwang2. Tp once gua bace die punye lirik rase macam nak tik...tik...tikkkkk...ish2!

Arinieh takde mende la. Aku jupe comforter Harry Potter....very nice! Tp mahal, standard price la beb. Pastu aku merayau meraban. Kejap jek sementare tunggu transport aku dtg...

Pastu sampai opis ade la org tuh sengih2 plak...nyampah....ye2 ckp nak jupe aku skali kejar bas...so, tak jupe aku langsung. Sent sms jek lagik...well..to be honest, aku pon tak tau nak pk ape. He'd been asking about me these last few days...calling and sending sms. When i was working, sumtimes he came n just talk to me. Later on, he took pix for my painted face (kitowang paint muke ikut bendera England, tp aku ikut bendera Indon, same color...but no cross). He kept my pix in his phone.

The thing started to get personal. He's now asking me about my luv life. N alwiz reminded me about owing him a lunch...a bfast...btw...it's more than 3 times. Speaking of owing, i owe so much help from others as well...tp die nieh..ntah la! He asked me out...but...i guess, i dunno what to say!

These 2 days, he's calling me "dear" in his calls...n asking when am i going to fall in luv again..

Not dat I dun like him, but it's getting to fast. I can see dat he's actually a very straightforward person, but we just knew each other. I mean, dulu kitowang satu team kan! But tak byk yg aku boleh tau sal die nieh...

I'm afraid dat aku yg perasan, so i keep quiet a lot. But to be honest...when he says he likes me...(not dat he luvs me!), aku cam speachless...n at last made jokes about it...

So, nak kuar ke? I'm scared. HONESTLY SCARED. I can go for dates, but tibe2 aku cam takut. Well....dis is what u get when u broke up with ur guy n u're afraid of the repetition of the history...

What shall I do? I dunno..pls...
Go with the flow, I guess...

Monday, June 26, 2006

take the lead



MENANGIS SEMALAM-AUDI

Kau sempat ucapkan pisah
Saat kau beranjak pergi
Tapi perasaanku
Tak berpaling darimu

Kau ucapkan jangan pergi
Saat ku datang kembali
Tapi luka ini
T'lah membeku tak mencair

Tahukah kamu semalam tadi aku menangis
Mengingatmu mengenangmu
Mungkin hatiku terluka dalam
Atau selalu terukirkan kenangan kita

Kau telah hadirkan kita
Untuk menggantikan aku
Tanpa kau sadari
Aku takkan pernah mengganti

Kau ingin tinggalkan aku
Dan menyandingku kembali
Ini takkan adil

Untukku ataupun dirinya


Lagu yg sangat la cedihh...ari2 aku dgr lagu nieh kat radio laaa...tv laa...pastu aku gi makan kat kedai mane tah die pasang lagu nieh. At 1st, macam malas nak amik pusing title sume...tp dah everyday dengar, so lame2 terpaut la jugak...hehe..

Aku tgk cite nieh semalam. Besttt!!! Sbb aku mmg suke tgk org dancing kan...lawa2 sumenye...lagik2 tang body...fullamakkkk!!! Kan best kalo spare tyre aku takde....macam papan plywood...hahaha...

Antonio Banderas. Aku takdelah minat sangat mamat nieh, tp atas cadangan adik2 aku tuh...aku tgk cite nieh. Cite nieh pasal cikgu dancing. Tibe2 aku terecall balik saat2 aku jd cikgu....rase geli ati plak. Ramainye dak yg bega macam dak2 dlm cite tuh. Ape2 pon aku rase thankful la sbb students aku tak melupekan aku nieh. Ade yg still sms aku smpai skang, email la..tula nilaaa...Ade plak yg terserempak ngan aku kat memane...basically terkejut bangat la sbb cikgu tak pakai baju kurung kan..hehe...

Take The Lead. A nite before dat aku tgk Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights. Pagi tuh pulak aku tgk Vanity Fair. Sumenye kat umah la. Series of cite2 yg menarik pade aku la. Aku rase byk2 cite dancing skang aku tetap dengan Save The Last Dance kot!

Ape agik ek...oooo....tak banyak cite, basically. Sbb penat sangat. Nieh pon penat lagik nieh padahal baru Isnin, keje dah memenatkan. Wish aku balik n tido pasnieh aaa...huuuuuu..

Aku nak wish beberape org. Basically tak tau la diorg masuk, ke tak blog nieh sbb jupe pon ari2 kan. Tp starting from today, tak jupe diorg lagik dah sbb they've been promoted! Congratulations to my mentors...Mr Satria Zainal Farid n Miss Jaqline...kedua2nye dah jd AMQ...waaaa...dongak la Cik Sha nak pandang lepas nieh. N newly acquianted fren...Mr Afahmi...baru 2 weeks die kaco aku dh kena promote jd mentor. Hehehe. So, no more same shifts...so, takleh kaco aku lagik dah. Tp tak kaco aku plak sangap....hahaha...

Agak2 aku nieh macam mane ek....diorg nieh bebagus belake...wuiiyoooo...respek siot!

Okeh aaaa....nak ckp pe lagik ek? Hmm....aku pon blur. Just a curiosity utk yg membace...."how do u react when sumone says he likes u?" Just asking....takde kena mengena, k!

Tu jelaaaaaa...

Thursday, June 22, 2006

lagu kuuuuuu....untukmuuuuu....adoiii!!!!



IF IT MAKES YOU HAPPY- SHERYL CROW

I've been long, along way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos,
And drank 'til I was thirsty again
We went searching through thrift store jungles

Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Goodman's corset and pen

Well, o.k. I made this up
I promised you I'd never give up

[Chorus]
If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

You get down, real low down
You listen to coltrane, derail your own train
Well who hasn't been there before?

I come round, around the hard way
Bring you comics in bed,
Scrape the mold off the bread,
And serve you french toast again

Well, o.k. I still get stoned
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home

Chorus

We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos,
And everywhere in between

Well, o.k. we get along
So what if right now everything's wrong?

Chorus

Adoiii....hari nieh calls sume teruk2 belake beb...huhu...hancus! Nywayz, ape2 pon terjadi...skang aku dh 2nd week on the floor...just did my 1st call coaching...4G 1A (G=Good)(A=Acceptable). No Excellent calls...sbb GSE nye belum begitu excellent..hehehe...So, kena work hard la!

Just asking u these questions...KOWANG PERNAH TAK ADE SUMBER INSPIRASI? Hehehe...kalo kowang nak tau kan, aku adelah satu cite di mane aku ade satu sumber inspirasi mase kat UNITEN dulu. Aku suke giler tgk sowang hambe Allah nieh kerane ponytail dikepalenye dan motor HOndar CBR nyeee...hehee...kadang2 Aprilia.

What happened is, aku bersemangat ke kelas yg aku malas nak pergi just to see his ponytail n weird fashions...just to see him riding in his bike! Rempit beb....tp yg glamour la!

Basically what happened lepas tu kan...UNITEN ade dress code n dis guy potong rambut, getting fat n getting a car. Dah tak best...so...dah tak minat...hahaha...

Now...kat tpt keje nieh aku ade gak sumber inspirasi. Tak minat, tp kalo nampak die jek kan...terus rase semangat...Tp!!!!!

Minggu depan die tukar shift...( 9-6pm) soo...aku takleh jupe die dah....sbb shift aku (8pm-5am)...kesian aku...cediiiiiighhhh!!!!

Camno ek...br dpt news sblm taip blog nieh...huuuuu...so..lepas nieh, lupekan! Takleh dah nak berangan...huwaaa....carikla yg len!

Okeh tuh jek...penat aaa...huuu...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

my anniversary....ALONE.



WHAT IF-KATE WINSLET

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

Hehehehe...ape ek nak cite kat kowang? Hmmm...yesterday aku MC for the 1st time! Takleh gi keje sbb Dr kate..."Shahida dok rumah jelah arinieh. Take ur rest, dear...tak boleh pergi keje macam nieh!". Thereeeeee....bukan aku saje2 buat2 MC, dr yg suh MC tau!!!!

Basically...aku still tak sihat....until now. Still terbatuk2 nieh. Aku nak bukak friendster sbb aku dpt a very important msg from sumone yg sangat important...dh berkurun rasenye tak dpt msg die nieh...well...guess what? Satu jek PC boleh gune kat kiosk tpt keje aku nieh...n I'm using it...tak boleh access frenster. What a Shame!!!!!

Gare2 BANANA MOCHA FRAPUCINO Starbucks. Sumenye terus hancus lepas aku minum mende alah tuh. Tulahhh...lenkali kalo nak mengidam tuh agak2. Hahahaha...padan muke. Dah elok2 sakit tekak, terus knocked down demam tak hingattttt...padan muke aku...hehehe...

Well....basically...seingat aku....tahun lepas pon aku demam macam nieh. Worst. Terukkkkk sangat. Sakit sangat. The reason? Lack of sleep for my very final paper...traveled from KL to Bandar Muadzam Shah in a very2 rush hours....naik 4wd yg dipandu secare bahayeeee...n aku akhirnye vomit dgn teruk skali....at the end of the day...BROKE UP WITH MY MAN...

Best kan? Ntahlah. Come to think about it again...tak tau macam mane aku boleh sampai ke date 19/06/2006 nieh. How I survived. Terkejut ke tidak? Terkejut sangat. Hahaha. Last time aku ingat dis date will never come...tibe2 aku sedar tak sedar...to much changes...including to date from 19/06/2005....I lost 10kgs....huhu...

I survived. Thru heart pain...thru so many things....n the most important thing aku rase hepi pasal date tahun nieh: I'M STILL SINGLE. Itu yg aku wish thn lepas and I got it dis year. Aku dah pernah cakap...I certainly taknak people especially sape2 pon...ingat my heart is easy to get. I might be frenly, but not ez...kay?!

Saat takleh dilupekan. Lari bawak ati ke utare kejap tuh. Mase tuh...ntahlah, tak tau pk ape. Yg penting, ade sowang nieh pandai aaa jage ati aku. Sape agik, my best buddy-Su. She brought me to see the ocean...tgk laut di kale sunset...let me be on my own for hours to be alone....n...after dat...aku just idup cam biase balik...

Remember the nites, when Ayen teman tgk bola...taklah teman in exact words...but we alwiz have sumthing to discuss...n sumtimes kena teman aku dok kedai buku....when he heates books...

Ape ek? Basically...just hepi to be with my best buddies thru dis year...Without them...I'm Nothing...

Thanx for being my frens even though other people are resisting...thanx..Luv U..Muaaaahhh!!!!:P

Back to work....jgn jiwang dah!:D

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Patah Sayap Malam



PATAH SAYAP MALAM- MASSA

Ku cari cahaya dalam kegelutan warna
Sewaktu malam resah mengibarkan sayapnya
Ku temui dia bayang malam yang terluka
Pesona cintaku pun terbakar

( korus #1 )
Dan puisi cinta tertumpah tintanya berdarah
Tersingkir dari titian makna yang setia
Tercalar purnama turut sama menjadi kan saksi
Luka cinta ku yang tak berhenti

( korus #2 )
Malam yang ku dakap megerikan mimpi
Malam yang ku dakap telah dinodai
Harumnya bunga cinta dibasahi hujan
Sebaknya di hati ku tangisan

( korus #3 )
Kusimpan kenangan bersama malam kecundang
Patah sayapnya kehampaan

( ulang korus #1 )

Begitulah aku kau tersiar di pandangan mata
Setelah kian lama dalam dakapan cinta
Patahlah sayapnya malam yang penuh dengan sengsara
Bagai diriku yang kau perdaya
( ulang korus #2, #3 )

Addoiiii..sakitnye tekak nieh. Arinieh cam bad day...boleh nyanyi la lagu BAD DAY arinieh...hehehe..tapi nyanyi tak nyanyi gak aaa...sbnrnye taklah hepi sangat sbb AHT tinggi melampai....tolonggggg!!!

Takleh cakap sal keje aaa. Kang mesti ade senyum, ade masam....ade macam2. Tp lately aku suke sangat carik gaduh...sbb org buat kerek ngan aku. Adoihaaiii..kenape la diciptakan kap lam ya nga dalam dunie nieh...pening aku seh!

Basically collegue aku dlm nieh okeh2 belake la. Yg tak best yg berade di negare sanun tuh...menyampah benor aku. Dh bagi details cukup, lagik mau suruh pusing2 ajek. Nk jek aku belasah cukup2 kalo ade depan aku....adoiii...kenape la lidah diorg nieh berbelit sangat!!!

Tp bile aku balik kang, aku jugak yg tergelak sorang2. Su kate semenjak aku keje sini, aku dh pandai buat lawak pasal org len. Siap ade immitation lagik. Ntahlah...satu mende aku blaja kat sini, untuk ari nieh...mende arinieh...untuk besok...mende besok. Barang lepas jgnkan dikenang...ecewwwaaahhh!!!

Aku tak pernah MC, aku tak pernah cuti. Kalo boleh nak jek aku wat attendance aku nieh jd 100%, walopon aku tak bagus mane. Kalo dimanjekan sangat diri aku nieh amik cuti kang mesti macam2 jadinye nanti...besok2 kalo sakit betul2...tak ke susah, kan?!

Skang nieh tgh sakit aaa nieh. Smpai pg td Su sound aku, "ko nieh jln nampak pintu tak..? Aku tgk macam lembik semacam jek!" Hahaha. Balik2 jek mmg aku dh lembik. Uwan aku smpai tegur, susah sangat ke keje nieh sbb kate die...badan aku dh susut sikit. Kate wan aku laaa...ikut ibu aku still byk tak puas ati lagik nieh, especially tang perut tuh byk lagik spare tyres...hehehe...

Bukanlah keje nieh susah, tinggal lagik kebolehan aku tak sampai sangat sbnrnye. Boleh...tp kenalah amik mase. Kadang2 tuh aku terpk jugak ape dh jadik ngan otak aku macam takde oksigen...lembab ajek. Tp lepas tuh pk2 balik malas nak amik pusing laaa...aku buat ape aku mampu, aku blaja setiap ari aku leh blaja. Jgn amik cuti...keje la sampai pandai...itu jek aku leh buat...

My target: to be as gud as my mentor aaa...nak kate org len, aku takleh judge sangat sbb all dis while yg aku tgk best jek ialah mentor aku. Hehe. Been listening to other people calls.....cam tak happening. Explanations....not dat happening as well. Tp gua blaja jek laaa...nak wat camne...no choice beb kalo nak makan!

Lately aku pon pelik ngan diri aku nieh...penyegan semacam la pulak. Tah hape2. Aku leh cakap ngan org, tp cam aku segan tibe2. There are people yg tegur aku, aku rase panas semacam jek muke nak jawab. Mengong ke pe? Ntah aaa. Tibe2 cam best jd pendiam sket, jgn cakap bebanyak sangat aaaa...save voice utk keje la Cik Sha oiii...

Aku mimpi ular byk kali aaa sejak kebelakangan nieh. Belit aku pulak tuh. Besar giler ular tuh! Dlm pd tuh aku puas pk dose pe dah buat smpai asek mimpi ular ek? Aku dah la allergik ular nieh...adoiii...

Yeayyyy...ari Jumaaat dah! Aku tak balik aaa minggu nieh. Save bajet. Aku windu ibu aku nieh, tp aku ingat balik next week jek, senang sket gaji dh masuk kan!

Aku rase aku dh jd sumone yg MEMBOSANKAN...ye ke ek? Judge la bile bace blog nieh ekkk...

Sok, luse...bachelor's weekend....hungga2...no dates. Hehe. Boleh tido sepak2...yeayyy!!

Adriana...awak contact la saye kat blog nieh...takleh anta msg kat awak kat blog awak tuh...

Ayennnnnnn....i miss u, my buddy!!! Hapasal windu sangat kat ko nieh weeiiiiii!!!!

Bla sambil berjiwang...

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

japanese women



CHECK ON IT -BEYONCE KNOWLES FEAT SLIM THUG

feat. Slim Thug)

Swiss Beats
DC - Destiny Child
Slim Thug

[Slim Thug]
You need to stop playing round with all them clowns and the wangstas
Good girls gotta get down with them gangstas
Go head girl put some back and some neck up on it
While I stand up in the background and check up on it

[Chorus]
Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

If you got flaunt it, boy I know you want it
While I turn around you watch me check up on it
Oohhh you watchin me shake it, I see it in ya face
Ya can't take it, it's blazin, you rock me it amaze me
You can look at it, as long as you don't grab it
If you don't go braggin, I'ma let you have it
You think that I'm teasin, but I ain't got no reason
I'm sure that I can please ya, but first I gotta read you

[Chorus]
Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight [x2]

I can tell you wanna taste it, but I'm gone make you chase it
You got to be patient, I like my men patient
More patience, you take might get you in more places
You can't be abrasive, have to know to pace it
If I let you get up on it, you gotta make a promise
That you gone put it on me, like no ones put it on me
Don't bore me, just show me, all men talk but don't please
I can be a tease, but I really wanna please you

[Chorus]
Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight [x2]

[Slim Thug]
I'm checking on you boo, do what chu do
And while dance I'ma glance at this beautiful view
I'm keep my hands in my pants, I need to glue em w/ glue
I'm in a trance all eyes on you and your crew
Me and my mans don't dance, but to feel ya'll bump and grind
If won't hurt if you gone try one time
They all hot, but let me see this ones mine
Its slim thug and DC outta H town

[Chorus]
Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight [x4]

Hmmm...adelah mase sket nak bercerite nieh. Well, gambo nieh gambo buku yg baru aku beli last week. Dis book as per dis month, 1 book for each month. Start balik dgn ape yg pernah aku buat dulu. But dis time around, I'm NOT going to read luv stories, if it's possible, bacelah mende2 len. Lagikpon aku tgk dah byk buku yg bukan luv stories available skang nieh...hepi Aunty Sha....hehehe..

Tajuk buku nieh macam menunjukkan aku nak kurus. Hahaha. Tp buku nieh bukanlah pasal kurus, buku nieh ade everything, all in one. Die ade diabetic and obesity facts, ade facts pasal eating habits satu dunia, n lots and lots of facts. Its actually a true story along with facts, figures n researches. Yg paling best, die ade quotes, n die ade recipes! Most of them are Japanese recipes, bukanlah aku nieh giler sangat nak memasak ala Jupon, but I really, really learn a lot. Di samping bermimpi suasana kampung Jupon n New York yg bz dalam buku nieh, I get to know the recipes, the facts n lots and lots of other knowledge. Bagus tak? Now I really luv reading....hihihi..

CUME... buku nieh, kaler ijau. Buku aku exactly macam di atas, tp warne shocking pink. Hmm...kowang nak tau, waktu lunch break aku, lepas mengadap PC nak update blog nieh utk kowang, aku bace sat buku nieh. Sambil makan bekal aku. Aku leh kate bekal aku sangat bagus skang, gud for my health...hehe...sile refer stories yg sebelum nieh ekk...

Semalam GREEN DAY. Environmental Day, so sume org kena pakai baju ijau. So, aku kenalah beli baju ijau. Dpt satu kemeja, sebbaik harge ok...Alhamdulillah. So, aku pon pakai la ijau. Work? Alaaa...ade hari down, ari ari up...so...paham2 la sniri. Keje macam aku, ceritenye tak menentu. Bukan ke mende yg paling susah nak dihandle ialah owang? So, pk la sniri...

Other than dat, kawan2 aku dah ramai bebeno yg nak resign dr sini. Tak tahan pressure, itu sbbnye. Aku leh paham situation dowang nieh, so aku tak marah pon bile dowang cakap nak brenti. Ikutkan aku sniri pon rase pressure, tp keje...mane yg tak pressure? Dah elok2 dpt keje takkanlah aku nak brenti...Tolak tambah banyak kali..terlalu byk mende yg elok leh aku pkkan skang...bile aku keje kat sini. So? takkanlah nak brenti just because tak tahan pressure?

Walopon kalo diikutkan muke aku yg paling garang, tp aku rase aku masih belum lagik give up. By the way, mentor aku dtg arinieh, tp arinieh die bukan mentor aku. Huhu. Aku segan aaa plak bile nampak die nieh! Hahhh...semalam windu sangat, arinieh tak reti aku nak menegur! Hahahaha. Die sakit aaa. Td aku tanye, "Are u sick?" Malas gua nak gune "not feeling well", sopan yg amat rasenye. Die angguk n lepas tuh aku malas nak kaco laaaa...whatever!:P

Ooo..ape aku wat weekend aritu? Aku tak cite kat kowang agik kan! Haaa...weekend arituh aku gi tgk KL INTERNATIONAL MOTORSHOW, Cik Su yg bawak. Die kan giler bab2 keta nieh. Aku suke jugakla...tp as usual, aku paling suke keta F1...keta len susah sket. Hehehe. Aku rase, aku nieh lebih kepade keta yg nampak hodoh kot...tp performance...perggghhhh...huhu...

Last2, car of the day pilihan aku - HAMANN MINI COOPER. Keta kompot yg comey tuh menambat ati Cik Sha...nntlah aku letak gambonye di sini satu ari nnt...worait!!!

Okeh aaa...dah takde mende len nak story...smpai di sini saje la nak story...story byk pon tak gune...back tp Naomi Moriyama on my lap....tatataaaaaaaa....

p/s: suke lagu nieh!:D

Monday, June 05, 2006

i miss you



BAD DAY -DANIEL POWTER

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Alaaaaaa...bosannye kalo facts kowang dah tulih ilang macam tuh...adoiii...tak best...!!!

By the way...malas nak taip balik...tgklah kalo aku rajin besok. Nywayz...i miss my old mentor. Dis week I'm going to have a new mentor...adoii...kelibat mentor lame aku langsung tak nampak. Dah la aku nak tanye die, tak dpt tanye...Takpe aaa..sum other time. Mentor aku yg nieh okay jugak, but not the best laaa..

Maleh aaa nak taip balik, buang mase...tata see u bye...meh layan lagu....

Thursday, June 01, 2006

apple



DEMI WAKTU-UNGU

aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
yang kini hadir diantara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
yang slama ini temani hidupku

maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran

Aku tak suke lagu nieh nye lirik. Rase nak belasah jek tukang nyanyi tuh...hukhuk...cian pompuan tuh weh...tak bersalah! Tapi demi melodi die yg aku goma sangat tuh...demi org yg nyanyi tuh sorenye best sesangat...jd aku suke la lagu nieh..hehehhe...mule2 benci tp dah lame2 best plak...siap melalak kat dapur (tp slow2 takut jiran dengar..kuang3)

Okeh aaa....takde mende sangat aaa....tp lately cam biase aku akan ckp ketidakpandaian aku wat keje lagik. Huhhh...dah nak masuk 3 bulan keje sini tak jugak pandai2. Tp aku takkan give up laaa...Seingat aku dlm idup aku nieh tak pernah nye ade kejayaan mudah. Mesti ade pengorbanan...termasuklah wang, reta dan segale2nye...So, maybe Tuhan masih menduga aku...so, aku terime dgn hati terbuka walopon terluka...ecewwwwaaahhhhh!!!

Gambo apple nieh comey kan? Utk pengetahuan kowang laaaa...ade cerite di sebalik buah epal ijau nieh. Sbnrnye dr student agik aku suke makan buah epal ijau. Melalui pengalaman aku, kalo aku skip dinner yg heavy dan makan epal ijau je, aku nye badan cepat la turun. Wat mase nieh, berat bdn turun, walopon shape nye hampir serupe...hehehe...semenjak keje nieh aku peratikan dh ade baju2 time badan lawa boleh pakai balik...hehe..jimat duit aku tak payah beli baju baru...huhu...

So, kat sini aku masih mengamalkan epal ijau aku tuh. Cume ade mase aku tak dpt amalkan sbb epal dah abih aku tak gi beli, nak gi Tesco malas jek. So...one day mase aku tgh basuh epal aku kat sinki kafetaria, tibe2 epal tuh jatuh n tergolek bawah sinki (sebbaik bersih bawah tuh!). So...aku pon kejar epal aku yg bergolek bawah sinki tuh n masuk bawah sinki. Sangkaan aku, takde org nampak aku menonggek kat situ...

Malangnye ade sowang mamat yg nak basuh tangan kat situ ternampak...n die terus menegur aku dr belakang. "Dah dpt buah epal tuh?" die tanye. Aku tersengih2 pi basuh balik buah epal aku...n merah muke tak ingat...Aiseh, malunyeeee....tak hingat!

So, die pon tanye, aku takmo makan nasik ke, aku jawab...takmo. Sbb? Aku takut cirit birit (takkan pulak nak bgtau aku tak makan nasik malam sbb dah gemuk! hahaha).

Aku lupe dah kejadian tuh...tp beberape kali sejak kebelakangan nieh aku slalu bertembung ngan mamat tuh. 1st time aku bertembung ngan die lepas kejadian tuh, kat lift mase aku nak pi naik tangge kecemasan, die plak naik lift sbb opis die tingkat paling atas. Senyum lebar die nampak aku. Siap tanye, "tak bawak ke buah epal ari nieh?" Aku tersipu2 cakap tak...hahaha..padahal buah epal ade kat tangan.

Kebetulan waktu aku jinjit buah epal asek terserempak ngan die. Smpailah semalam aku tak bwk, tp bertembung. Aku tak perasan die, sbb pintu dah nak tutup...die siap tahan pintu tegur aku, "hi buah epal!!!" Aku blushing agik.

Kowang mesti nak tau nape aku blushing tak hingat sal buah epal nieh. Utk pengetahuan kowang, mamat nieh hensem yang amat beb!!!! Senyuman die tuh aku rase wat ramai awek Melayu kat opis aku nieh cair...n aku tgk mase die tegur aku pon, ramai yg memandang....hehehe

Yg best tuh...kitowang tak tau name masing2. Aku tau die budak tingkat 3, tak tau deparment mane. Tp die tau pulak aku budak department mane. So, last2 semalam, waktu aku tunggu van, die ade plak. Kate die, die drive...tp tunggu member. So...die pon tanye aku, aku dak seremban ke? Aku pon pelik mane org tau aku dak Seremban sbb aku naik van Kajang. Mostly org ingat aku dak Kajang. Last2...slps puas die ngusik aku (dgn siap usik, nak jd awek saye tak? hahaha), kitowang pon berkenalan secare rasmi. Adoiiiihaaaiii...terkejut awek2 kat sini pandang aku borak ngan die...hahahhaha..

Die nieh kepeng dan kurus. Aku saje tanye die, "Nape awak panggey saye buah epal? Sbb saye bulat macam epal ke?" Die gelak besar...smbil ckp..."Sbb awak comey macam buah epal awak tuh!" Mak aaaiihh..blushing aku dgr ayat Sang Buaya....hahahhaa...

Okeh aaa...break time nak abeh...hehe...nnt kite sambung cite agik...