Wednesday, February 18, 2009

sha: the chrysanthemum story - part 14

Velvet Chrysanthemum, originally uploaded by Hyperreality.

Budak rentas desa pulak lalu. Aku dok excited tgk budak2...


Sepet: I taknak budak tuh.
Aku: Ruginyeeeee!!!
Sepet: Budak pompuan skang lebih kurang same je, Sha...
Aku: Tp die muda. Budak kampung.
Sepet: Will u do the same if the situation is reverse?
Aku: Ntah.
Sepet: Kalo I tak confident yang I can give that commitment...buat ape?
Aku: Boleh punyeeee...
Sepet: I tak boleh imagine I nak kawen ngan die. Sehari...dua hari...setahun? Dua tahun? Boleh maintain?
Aku: Boleh...mesti die bagus jage u...
Sepet: I can take care of myself, thank you.
Aku: U nak ape lagi...dah ade depan mate?
Sepet: I thought, boleh la mula2...
Aku: So, jadi kawen tak?
Sepet: Tak.
Aku: :Laaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
Sepet: Siape pon partner I, Sha...will I manage?
Aku: U will.
Sepet: I dah rase kosong dlm nieh Sha.
Aku: I understand.
Sepet: I dunno how to do it anymore. I told my sister mase die tanye pasal budak tuh.
Aku: So?
Sepet: Let me be with the life yg takde life nieh. I am better when I'm alone.
Aku: U're sure?
Sepet: Takpelah...maybe it's just fate.
Aku: As long as you're happy. But, in my position...I really hope that u will be with someone.
Sepet: U?
Aku: Tak...cerita kite dah habis. Kalo dgn org len pon, I dah happy. Asalkan ade yg jage u...
Sepet: I taknak org lain...
Aku: My dear...it is always nice to see you happy...
Sepet: U happy, Sha?
Aku: Sure.
Sepet: Kenape u tak cerite ape2 pon?


I looked at him and wished that I will not going to expose what was there in my heart. His chest was empty. He doesn't have feelings for anyone...Shall I say something which I'm going to regret?

5 comments:

Neeza Shahril said...

Sha.. should you tell him, should you not? should you, should you not?
entahlah Sha.. tapi kalau bagi tahu, lepas kan apa di dada.. tapi mungkin he has the same feelings towards you. Cuma malu nak admit ;)

Quiyah said...

jsut tell him ok..

regret or not.. blakng kira..

if he does not accept it.. so be it.. it's his loss, not urs..

but if he does.. ?

Pocket said...

aduhhhh!!!
pocket kalu, susah jgak nak cakap tu.
tp atleast sha sebutkan apa yang sha rasa,
the rest let fate decide lah.

tp susah jgak tu.
hummmmmmm...

Suzi said...

salam sha...dah lama tak jenguk ke sini...akak bz pindah rumah. dah tertinggal dah cerita...
apa2 pun rasanya berterus terang itu lebih baik...

aku hanya orang kecik, dari sel yang paling kecik dalam badan lelaki... said...

salam ziarah dari cerita mungkar