Wednesday, March 11, 2009

sha: the chrysanthemum story - part 20


big chrysanthemum, originally uploaded by alex.roberts.

Bunga-bunga...


Sepet: I can't tell you how long it will be this time, Sha...
Aku: I ade cakap nak baik balik?
Sepet: U cakap u nak kawen ngan I.
Aku: Dat was what I was thinking for the past 2 years until I learned from someone that you're married.
Sepet: U tau sekarang, I am not married. Full stop.
Aku: If we're together, no playground. I want a ring. But then...u already said no.
Sepet: I just cakap I'm not into relationship. Cuz the consequences...
Aku: I know...I know...dats why I cakap, I already knew your answer!
Sepet: Kenape u tunggu lame sangat nak cakap? U tau tak macam mane I tunggu u dulu?
Aku: Ooo...yeah. I put myself in your shoes, arrange my words for 2 years. U ingat apasal I tak kawen lagi?
Sepet: (kening berkerut)
Aku: I tunggu u. I thought, kalo kite ade jodoh...u akan balik. Tapi lepas tuh, org cakap ngan I u dah kawen...
Sepet: I saje cakap kat org bg u dengar...
Aku: I lost hope for a while...yeah..Tp it doesn't mean I tak boleh ade Orkid...it's just dat I taknak ade Orkid dgn org len..
Sepet: Meaning?
Aku: How do u think I feel...thinking of having a man whose not going to have your place? Dr seksa anak org...baik I sorang.
Sepet: It's not worth it.
Aku: It does. U know me. How many boyfriends I ade? Yeah..fling...suke2...tp REAL relationship? Hanya 2 kali dlm idup!
---> First, my boyfriend kat college. Dah kawen pon. I thought I loved him, but letting him go to another girl was sweeter than I could ever imagined. Lepas tuh, u. Dat was a real relationship.
I fell in love. U nie, tak lah handsome. Education wise...hmmm..I could find better. Duit? Well...boleh la. In my position, u know that I will search for financial security. But I'm choosing u...


Sepet: Kenape I?
Aku: If only I knew the answer. I thought I would forget about u. But my feelings remain unchanged. And it became stronger. 2 tahun tp I tak boleh lupe u lagi.I doa harapkan u balik macam dulu. Makbullah agaknye, sbb u balik. Tp u tak balik sbb I, kan...


I looked at the lake in front. Fuhhhh...tak pernah nye aku lega macam nieh. Yeah...I know the answer was not as everyone expected it to be...tp aku lega.
I looked at him...


Aku: Eh...kenape nie? U okay?


His eyes filled with tears.

4 comments:

Suzi said...

lega sbb nak meluahkan yg terbuku...

Suzi said...

nak=dah

atty's said...

follower..

Neeza Shahril said...

apa kesudahannya Sha?