Tuesday, September 08, 2009

sha: takdir cinta-a note to my bestfriend




My beloved friend,

I think you've already knew how much I like Rossa's song. I mean, the 3 caller ringtones from the same singer is enough to prove that, right?

I heard this song only once. It's from Rossa and it's definitely from Ayat-ayat Cinta.I don't know why but everytime the tv was showing Ayat-ayat Cinta, I never had the chance of watching the movie in full.

What I knew - this song related to the 2 most important person in the hero's life. The best friend got hurt when he got married. Then the wife got hurt when he took the best friend as a second wife. Either way, both of them were exceptionally nice women. They were patient.

" ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
ku yakin ada cinta
ketulusan hati yang mengulir lembut
penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku..."

I know, this is just a movie. Realistically, it's very hard to find nice women like this. You said so. I truly agree with you. This is because the movie will never relate to us. Same goes to My Heart too - because I am neither in love with you nor intending to become your wife.

"andaikan ku bisa lebih adil
pada cinta kau dan dia
aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa..."

It's hard to live without you. We had each other for quite sometime until she came into the picture. I wish I can make things better. I wish my instinct will stop saying that she is not the best for you. But I can't change you mind nor your love. So, I wish that you will forgive me for not fully accepting the woman you love though I never had any intention of making you mine. Because the love that I have for you is from a friend to a friend.

"biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini
ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku..."

I am so tired of discussing this, my dear.

Everytime we talk about this, we'll end in misery. Tears will be spilled, nasty words will be said and we will end up silent to each other. I can still remember how lonely 2008 Ramadhan without you. We were holding on to our on principles about the same matter until the 30th Ramadhan night when you eventually broke the ice by wishing me Selamat Hari Raya...

" penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku..."

By accepting her, it means I'm hurting myself. I just can't accept the fact that she is holding you up until today. Do you know how lonely this past one year has been? How painful? You were there all the time, and I was always there for you. We went different ways just because she thought that you will fall for me if she's letting us to be friends?

My dear,

She doesn't know me and doesn't want to get to know me. So, I won't accept her perception. I can't fall for you. Otherwise, I would've fall for you earlier. Way before she met you! Why do I have to take 2 broken relationship before engaging myself with you, right? Can't she see that?

Give me time to accept that when I'm watching Wayne Rooney I don't have to call you or when you're watching Torres you don't have to say anything to me. Please give me time to ignore your messages to check whether I'm home or for you to stop asking whether I'm safely tuck in my bed...

I'm going to miss you one day. For now, let me just learn the word PATIENCE.

Our destiny is saying: We're best friends.

Please teach her that.

12 comments:

juelee said...

penuh madah netri sha kali neh... syahdu lak hati baca... memang payah kalau berada dalam situasi camni...

syed mohamed bin syed hassan (jen) said...

mai la dgr cite jen lak....hehe

fairy said...

nape la kita ni byk sgt yg sama kak.
Awal tahun rasanya fa dh rasa dh mcm yg akak rasa ni. Nak kata makan hati tak, nak kata frust pun tak.ye la best friend je kan..tapi ada la rasa kehilangan sikit...Mmg seksa memula, tapi lama-lama ok. Bunyi mcm putus cinta, tapi tak..ish..ish..ish

♠ y.a.n.i.e putrajaya ♠ said...

rossa...

lirik lagu dia penuh dengan bait2 yg puitis...
kekadang ada kena mengena dengan diri ku jua

hiks~

Tie said...

Hmm... jangan dok layan bestfriend tu Sha... Cara pemikiran Sha dan bestfriend tu tak sama.

Kalau kak tie, terus anggap bestfriend tu jadi lostfriend. Cari lain la Sha. Sha boleh kawal perasaan Sha, tapi, dia atau wife dia tak tahu boleh buat apa. Sekarang ni orang ganas2... bahaya tau.

atty's said...

lirik lagu yg sungguh puitis..

sya said...

hmm, sedihnya baca ni.. rasa macam termasuk sama dalam situasi pulak..

tak pe lah, banyakkan bersabar, doa dan serahkan pada Allah.. :)

cheers! :)

LotsOfLove-Pearls said...

Salam Dear Cheryna..
Hye, hw r u then?

hope ya happy and sihat2 ok..

LOL juga suka lagu2 Rossa.

Best semuanya..

Dan LOL suka lagu 'Ladies' tue..

Kepada Dear,
Be patience..

cHeRyNa PiReS said...

jue:
---> ntahlah jue...tiba2 lak rasa nak mengatakan perkara nieh ngan terbuka kat dia...biar dia tahu yg sha tak main2 bila sha kata sha tak rasa apa kat dia...

fa:
---> ntah nape situation kite selalu sama kan? ye...terasa sangat seksa la lately...

yanie:
---> rossa tak perlu menjerit utk menyanyikan lagu puitis...tp dapat tangkap hati jantung dan pankreas...ehehe...

kak tie:
---> tak boleh la nak putus kawan kak tie...dia baik orgnya, jarang sakitkan hati kecuali pasal yg ini. sha masih bertahan sbb mereka belum berkahwin lagi...so, kami masih berkawan...bukan ada apa2...

sya & atty:
---> thanks...nasihat yg baik tuh! lagu nieh mmg puitis...

dearie:
---> hey ladies pon best..sume pon best:)

a kl citizen said...

assalammualaikum

sha...
la...sedih nya baca ntri ni...
jangan sedih2 ya...

setiap yang berlaku mesti ada baiknya nanti, kena percaya yang itu

akak doakan sha bahagia dunia dan akhirat nanti

Zyma Saad said...

Uikkkkssss,tangkap cintan ghupernya ekau ni.
Bercinta tu boleh,tp bercinton dgn Indon...ekau jgn buek la yo.

Pesanan dari Pihak Penaja :
Terus kahwin la ye..... :)
May ALLAH bless you.

cikwan said...

ayat2 lagu kalau kene dengan diri sendiri mmg mengasyikkan.mmg manusia ni penuh dengan 1001 mcm sikap sha...harap sha bersabar..anyhOw itu saja yg bOleh dilakukan kerana she's the ms.understOOd selama ini kan..