"Apa saja untukmu
Tak ku hiraukan waktu
Katakan saja kan ku laksana
Permaisuri kau bertahta di jiwa..."
Thanks to the person who sang this song last week. I knew it was jokingly sang by the person to lighten up the mood. Unfortunately the song stuck in my head for at least 2 days. Today, while I'm scheduling my blog, the melody just came out of my mouth.
Sha is singing...
Ku cuba meraih
Bintang di angkasa
Walau tak terdaya, kan ku ikhtiar..."
How I wish I am 16 years old again! I am now listening to all these old school songs - from the rusty Rock Kapak to Ziana Zain and Siti Nurhaliza. When I'm in the mood of singing English songs - I sang Alanis', Meredith, Sheryl's, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls and B*witched. I don't realise that these songs are more than 10 years old. How fast the time flies kan?
I almost forgotten that 2010 is the year when my younger cousin sisters are planning to get married instead of the elder ones (because they are already married). Frankly, this reminds me of my age and for some reason it is freaking me out! I'm old...huwahahahaha...2 more years and I'm going to reach thirty. Adoi.
Jealousy is out of the question. Rezeki is rezeki and jodoh is jodoh. It is not that I'm feeling left out because my cousins are getting married. I should be happy that family members are getting married. At least they are. I have seen a family with only two possible brides and only one got married at the age of 36 years old. The first grandchild is 28 and she is not married either. Whose family is that? Mine;)
That's the good thing of having both sides of families - each has its own uniqueness. I have weddings from my mother's side and fishing competition from my father's side. It's kind of balance, don't you think? I'm such a LUCKY girl. Hehehe.
You might be thinking that I'm going to any Kursus Kahwin; and that is the reason on why this posting has such title today. If you think that way, you're almost right. I had this urge of going to a Kursus Perkahwinan last week. While I was going through the wedding cards and leave application forms - I felt as if I wanted to take the leave for myself.
Why was that? It was because I couldn't imagine taking leave to go to a Kursus Kahwin. I couldn't imagine datelines while sitting on a pelamin. I couldn't imagine sleeping on a satin and lacy bed while there are tons of papers on my desk.
But some people do. Some people can. I have a high level of respect towards the ones who managed to finish their task before they got married. That was certainly awesome. How about those who didn't manage to do so? Hmmm...no comment.
While my friend Q was inviting me to another type of courses, I smiled to myself. I couldn't imagine going to a Kursus Kahwin as a single - without a partner by my side. That was totally out of question. Imagine being alone in this pool of people who are in love? Wooww...I don't think the feeling is blissful at all.
But then again...why am I feeling "the bliss" even when I'm not in one of those Kursus Kahwin?
Oh yeah...right. I'm in Facebook. Where everyone is stating the word husband, wife and kids.
Errr...I think I should log off.
The feeling of being in Facebook is similar to being in Kursus Kahwin.
Walau tak terdaya, kan ku ikhtiar...
Oh...shut up, Sha:)
* Any wedding stories to tell me, folks?