It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb
-Too Much Heaven by Jordan Hill and Bee Gees
The phrase sang by Jordan Hill and Bee Gees "i'm waiting in line" made me smile. While typing this, I am actually commenting on the link that I put in my FB. There is a guy over here who might not have anything to do besides discussing Pasha Ungu's look with me. Hehehe. Let it be. I'm enjoying myself as I feel this is the right time to communicate with someone. Thanks to this person, I have that opportunity tonight.
This is because I have a confession to make:
I liked someone. I mean it was just some crazy attraction I felt when I was on the verge of breaking up with Sepet. Well, we did broke up and things like that. But it was hard to say good bye because he came back several times. His intention was good - he wanted to settle down and things like that. But I had doubts and he didn't do it right. So, we broke up and said good bye. There is no turning back!
I knew that Sepet was no longer the love of my life when my heart managed to divert its attention towards someone else. I have never done this. I mean, regardless what happened to us, I had never thought that there would be a day when I was thinking of another man besides him.
And I did.
But this person was not available. He had a partner of his own and I knew I stood no chance in winning his heart and things like that. He was not into me. So, how long did my attraction last?
A week, I supposed.
Then I re-checked my composure and focused on the exact things that I needed to do. I stopped thinking about this person and I just moved on. The only thing which held me back was when I was watching House this evening.
This one genius guy married one stupid lady. Their IQ leveled by 91 points. He made this statement:
"Her IQ is closer to a monkey's than it is to mine. Making love to her is like making love to an animal."
Sha mengucap panjang. I have always admired smart guys. But if my IQ is not as leveled as the person I like/love, will the person say all these nasty things to me?
So, I was silent for a moment. Suddenly I remembered him.
The person I liked has several options even though he is taken. But looking at his options made me think that none of them deserved him. There was a sense of dissatisfaction in me which caused me pray hard that he made the right decisions in life!
Even though this was not a competition, it felt like one. I started to think that if I'm going to lose in this game of love, I might as well lose to a champion. Someone who is better, smarter, prettier. Haiii...if my mum hears this she will say, "Kan jodoh itu ditangan Tuhan!"
At least I won't feel that bad and I won't feel like waiting in line too.
Kalau kalah pun, biarlah dengan yang hebat kan?
Aiseh...now I'm remembering the song Kau Ada Dia again:(