Thursday, May 20, 2010

sha: ku ingin selamanya




cinta adalah misteri dalam hidupku
yang tak pernah ku tahu akhirnya
namun tak seperti cintaku pada dirimu
yang harus tergenapi dalam kisah hidupku

I loved the character Addison in Grey's Anatomy. I mean, I don't fancy Meredith Grey for some reason. So, when Addison "moved" from Grey's Anatomy to Private Practice,I switched my attention towards the new show. Besides, Pete is cute and I love to feast my eyes...!!! Hehehehe...

ku ingin slamanya mencintai dirimu
sampai saat ku akan menutup mata dan hidupku
ku ingin slamanya ada di sampingmu
menyayangi dirimu sampai waktu kan memanggilku

This weekend, the episode was sad. A doctor who had a pancreas cancer was funny, cool and acceptance during his treatment. But he wanted to die fast. He didn't want to wait. In the end, on the day he died, he admitted these:

He didn't want to die alone.

He asked, "Will the world remember me? It will be as if I never exist."

ku berharap abadi dalam hidupku
mencintamu bahagia untukku
karena kasihku hanya untuk dirimu
selamanya kan tetap milikmu

I was not that focused, though. My nose was runny, my eyes were blurry and my throat was itchy. So, you can imagine my condition. But when you're sick, you tend to be oversensitive. I believe it was not just me. My friend asked me a weird question like, "why do i have a notion that this person hates me?" I mean, she was a cool person who did not pay attention towards other people's opinion. But when she was sick, she suddenly cared about nonsense:P

di relung sukmaku
ku labuhkan sluruh cintaku
di hembus nafasku
ku abadikan sluruh kasih dan sayangku

Maybe I fell under the same situation. Then, I heard this song in HotFM. I fell in love with it and checked out Youtube.com the moment I reached home. Argghh...it was not really a song for me with this condition. But a cure to the death I saw in the morning.

Die alone. With no companion and no kids. That made me stressed up. After a moment of thought, I smiled again. Yes, I must work hard to get Orkid in my life. I can almost hear Orkid calling me "mama!"

Reminding myself about Orkid has made me smile. It boosted my energy even though I'm putting my head on a pillow while typing this.

No, Sha is not going to be alone. She'll be remembered. At least, by Orkid. Insya-Allah.

I watched the video clip silently today, hoping that I was part of the story. But I wasn't. This specky guy in the clip reminded me too much of Mr. Hakuto and another person (no name mention).

Eventually it made me think of my late grandparents and I started to cry.

Aiissshhh...that's why I needed to be on sick leave! I was too emotional. But then again, I was lucky because I got sick during the weekends.

No malingering;)

Tell me, folks...
Are you moody when you're sick?

8 comments:

Pocket said...

nyanyi lagu ni sama yok,
karaoke ker (kena la gi KL kan)
tru the phone ker (mintak fon no pls)
Vdo Chat maybe? (Gaji nanti pocket gi bli vdocam)

about being remembered...
of course u'll be remembered.
at least by me if i'm still alive :)

Anne M. said...

pocket!

ai akan sentiasa ingat kat u..
tetiba lak

kita tak pernah padam memori semalam kan kak?

get well soon

et said...

i'll remember u.promise.

Quiyah & Hasrul said...

sha,

kindly check out this link..

http://no-white-labcoat.blogspot.com/2010/05/kisah-benar-impian-jadi-kenyataan.html

and just so you know, u're always on my mind..

Dee said...

i will always remember u sha..

kalo dee sakit pun dee sensitif gak..it's normal kan..

ashie023 said...

ambe kalu sakit, xdelah moody..tp terasa amat sakit tuh, rasa x selesa...dan akan monyok ...<-eh bukan ke itu moody...??ahaha

Princess Liyana said...

Hehehe sakit weekend tk pyh amik mc..ehehe kan kak?

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