Monday, November 12, 2012

textuality

Textuality - the movie
TEXTUALITY is a lighthearted look at 2 people trying to get into a relationship, who must first get OUT of the multiple relationships they were managing through their BlackBerrys before they met.

At it's heart, is a story about living, loving, and most importantly - laughing at ourselves in this crazy digital age. 

2003
"Sha...are you out of your mind?!" my friend, Wa, asked me.
 "My sanity is still here, " I tapped my right temple.

 She sighed.

"Kenapa Wa?" I asked.
"He is not your type," she said slowly.
"Sebab?"
"Sebab...dia bukan jenis yang akan buat kau capai keputusan sedrastik ini."
"Wa...jangan cepat menilai..." I plead.

"You have always liked a bad boy. Kadang-kadang itu kelemahan kau tapi ada masanya pada aku itulah kelebihan kau. Kau bukan jenis minat lelaki pemalu. Tapi sejak bila..." she stopped there.

"Aku nak cuba," I immediately interrupted. 

"Right. Bila kau tak penat dengan sms dia, e-mail dia, YM dia, kau bagitau aku, Sha," Wa smiled bitterly. 

Few minutes later, I received a message. It said, "Sayang, dah nak tidur ke?"

I sighed. His sms was like a routine.  
The same words. The same sentence. The same topic.

2006
"Hello," that voice was on the other line.
"Hola! " Aye, I sounded excited.
"Happynya suara..." he laughed.
"Of course la. Ada orang tu call kita. Kata busy? " I laughed as well.
"Memang busy pun. Call sekejap je ni. Kejap lagi nak pergi main dah."
"Main?" I asked cynically.
"Haah...nak pergi main, Cik Sha. Ada awek ramaaaaaiii sangat," he teased.
"Iyeke? Okaylah. Pergilah main, ye," I replied.
"Comel awek nama Nazri ni, Cik Sha. Gebu!" 
"Cubit-cubitlah pipi dia tu...pergi cubit ye, " I laughed. Again.

"You buat apa tu sebenarnya?" he asked seriously.
"Tak ada apa sangat. Baru sampai, dah mandi so sekarang nak tidur."
"Tu bunyi kat belakang tuuuuuu..." 
"Oh. Guns and Roses lah," I remember that I was smiling when I said that.
"Nice. Listen, I nak pergi dah main ni. Besok kita bual okay?" he asked.
"Main futsal itu memanglah okay. Tapi main yang lagi satu tu...hmmm..." 
"Main lagi satu tu lah yang best!"
"Wooiiiii...ni yang malas nak bercakap ni..." I grumbled.
"Hahaha. Dah. Sleep well. Don't miss me, aye?" the tone that I loved.
"Kirim salam awek-awek ramai you."

I heard him chuckled.

Then I heard, "Go and see your boyfriend in your dreams."

I asked, "Ada ke?"

He laughed, "Jangan lupa support team futsal dia dalam mimpi you. Bawak pompom."

I remember sleeping with a smile.

Participation - from the movie Textuality
2012

At the mamak stall.
"Woiii!!! Tu mee goreng kau dah sejuk," my friend nudged me.

I flipped the cover of my Samsung Galaxy Note over. Then I looked at her.

"Cheryna, kalau nak bercinta time lain! Makan dulu," she scolded me.

I grinned and started to munched the cold mee goreng mamak.

The truth was that I had only that time to text was not being told. I received the message three hours earlier and replied it three hours later.

At home.
"Kau cuba check sikit, dik, kakak tengah message siapa," my brother said. The other brother started to check my phone. I flipped the cover and placed the phone on my chest to prevent them from looking at it or to avoid them from taking it.

"Kawan akulah, " I told my brother.

"Message tak henti-henti. Sengih sana sini," he commented.

Then I remember my friend who scolded me at the mamak stall. I kept quiet.

The truth.
We are just friends. Nothing else. So, I am not expecting situation in 2003 or 2006. Frankly, I have no expectation. At all.

Honestly, I am a very cautious person. I am difficult in giving trust or earning one.

However, after watching the movie Textuality, somehow my perception is going back to normal. The people in the movie have rosters on their social media; they set the calendar for dates, they are particular in their in a relationship and single status....and they use messengers more than ever!

Blackberry and Apple
Whatsapp and Blackberry Messenger have never been worth it before :)

And when the girl can't expresse her words in a confrontational manner, she updates her blog.

Well, whatever shown in the movie was definitely not something that I was looking for - even if it was just a mere friendship or just an acquaintance. In my opinion, everyone should be able to express themselves in the most natural ways.

"Do you realise that the intonation of reading and the intonation use for texting might not be the same?"

When you use messenger to converse or a blog to express yourself, sometimes it is not as effective as you think. Some things need to be imagined quite hardly in order for you to really understand what the other party is trying to tell you.

Imagine reading a book or a blog without this : !@#$%^&*()_+)(&^$#@!

You're sexy
You're sexy!
You're sexy?

The words above carry some meaning, right?

Besides, do you realise that a voice is a form of memory which makes it difficult to forget a person? You remember the voice of your mother, teacher, daughter (even when they are crying) because that is part of the memory.

Otherwise, you won't recognise Najwa Latiff every time you tune on the radio :)

You see, I love books. I love blogs. But I'm not fond of social media or text messages. Why? Simple. You can't hold a person's voice in your hands but the voice is tangible in your memory. That is the reason why talking is essential even though texting look safe and guarded.

Aye. I would love a phone call once in a while. To make it and to receive it.
At least at some point, the assurance and comfort is there.


Life was much easier when Blackberry and Apple were just fruits :)


17 comments:

Remy hazza said...

kekadang kita tak sedar aksi2 kita jadi perhatian pada org lain... apatah lagi kalau bunga2 sedap mekar dlm taman hati..... he3

memula kawan..... tak mungkin satu hari nanti berubah perasaan... kawan adalah yg terbaik utk kita kenal hati budi.....

4feet8 said...

sha..antara 2006-2012, apa terjadi..?

Syara Mohammad said...

Sugar!

Err... Err... I've stopped texting and messaging like for ages. Yeah. Since 2008.

And yes. I'm too allergic with the word "commitment".

That's all sugar. Have a nice day! =)

Encik H said...

H sebenarnya sangat pemalas..H malas nak text2, malas nak call2..kadang2 org sms pun H x reply, org call pun H x jawab, walaupun daripada family sendiri..terutamanya kebelakangan ni la..rasa macam telefon ni mengganggu..

certain person jer yg mampu buatkan H kerap sms and call..:D

cHeRyNa PiReS said...

bercinta dgn yg call itu ;-)

Nizam.Ariff said...

blackberry - in both form... dua2 aku tak pernah rasa lagi...

LauraLeia said...

I agree.
Sometimes I think back and kick myself for not calling more, instead relying on texts and blogs to convey my feelings. To the point that I forgotten that voices are one of the most important parts of our memories.

Jna marcello said...

macam tu meh laa no phone kak sha wee~~!!

Lepasni bertambah rimas kak sha dgn na :S

Amieynna said...

sejak single memang jarang sms. kecuali hal kerja. tapi sejak ada Whatsapp group chat, terus rasa cam ada pakwe semula. padahal chat ngan kwn2 sekolah lama.

Rapunzeel Cikilolo said...

dulu masa mula-mula kenal memang la best, sanggupla call pukul 3 pagi dan gayut jam-jam. msg setiap saat. tu pun bertahan 3 bulan.

lepas dari tu, suka dan serius. terus mcm biasa. call bila perlu.

waktu malam dan sedikit waktu pagi. kadang2 semua pun cakap hal kerja.

aieh... teringin jugak nak mcm dulu. hihi

boni kacak said...

lelaki yang selalu sms awak tu... apa jadi dengan dia??

Kengkawan said...

sweet entry. i like:-)

baby comel said...

kenapa kita blh tersenyum sana sini bila baca msg?? sbb hati sedang berbunga2? huhu..
I miss that moment

Rai Ourkizuna said...

sweett..

kak sha.. true.. ada masa bila tak mampu nak luahkan dlm perkataan saya lagi suka text je dgn husband.. lagi2 time nak majuk ke kan.. hahaha..

sampai skang there still time bila saya sengih sorg2 baca sms dari dia..

hainom OKje said...

Emm... OKje pernah tengok cite tu... tapi tak ingat sangat cite dia macamana....

Betul tu Sha, menulis dalam blog, texting, .... tak sama dengan berinteraksi dengan suara apatah lagi berjumpa empat mata!

Len Inouie said...

Texting=wasting time.
I hate.

Aya Yus said...

Texting or messaging = makan masa, lambat, kekdg silap paham, tak paham lgsg pun ada. Call or talking face to face = lagi mudh nk faham, jimat masa, nmpk ekspresi muka, jelas. Sebb tu saya tk suka msg2 or sms2 ni!